I don’t know you. You don’t know me. But I can’t help but think about you.
First off, you are undeniably beautiful. You are gorgeous and lovely and flawless, and it’s easy to see why he was in love with you. But I probably should have suspected that. You were able to catch his attention, which means you had to be pretty damn amazing. I wish I was writing this in bitterness to show you what you lost and how much I dislike you, but it isn’t. I don’t even hate you. This is a thank you letter.
I love him.
I love him more than I ever thought was humanly possible. He came out of nowhere and gave me everything I ever needed or wanted. We clicked instantly and it’s like we were made for each other. We are perfectly in sync. He’s my everything, but before I met him he wasn’t.
At one point, he was your everything. He was the one you loved and you saw the stars in his eyes. You held his hands, kissed his lips, and he probably looked at you like you gave him the world.
He has the sweetest heart. So I can only imagine the sweet words he said to you, the genuine effort he put into romantic gestures for you, and the way he took time to make you feel like the only girl in the world.
I know how all of this ended but I still have so many questions.
Did he say “I love you” the same way he does to me? Did he tell you that you were the most beautiful girl in the world? Did he tell you all of his past? Did he make you laugh? Did he hurt you? Why did you hurt him?
Did you love his sleepy voice in the morning like I do? Could you tell when he’s upset just by the change of his voice like I can? Could you calm the storms in him like I do? Did you listen when he needed someone to lean on like I do? Did you try to make up for all his past hurts like I want to? Did you make him truly happy? Did you ever really love him?
I think about those things anytime I hear him say your name. But, I also think about if you hadn’t been the way you were then I wouldn’t be the luckiest girl in the world and have this wonderful man by my side every single day.
By you breaking his heart, you made room for me. You left and I came.
Although I hate that you got to love him and hate even more because you hurt him, but I am thankful.
I am thankful that every day I get to wake up and fall asleep next to him. I’m thankful that I get to spend the day making him laugh. I’m thankful that I found my best friend and soulmate. I’m thankful that I have him to run to when my world seems upside down and he sets it right. I’m thankful for our late night conversations about silly stuff, serious stuff, and everything in between. I’m thankful that I get to love him and show him what real love is. I’m thankful that we appreciate each other so much. I’m thankful that we both try so hard.
But above all, I’m thankful for his love.
Without you letting go of the most wonderful thing that’s ever happened to me, I wouldn’t be here the happiest I have ever been. So as much as I think about you and as jealous as I might feel some days, all I can really say is thank you.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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