My Morning Routine

6:45 am Turn off alarm

Every morning my alarm goes off at 6:45 am. Like most people I use my phone as an alarm clock. So the first thing I do is turn it off and then cuddle with my boyfriend (yes, I do live with my boyfriend– blog post coming soon about that!). At this point we are on our phones and talk about what we’re going to do for that day.

7:30 am Get up and walk Spirit

By 7:30 my boyfriend and I get up and go outside to get my dog, Spirit and take him out to the dog park near our home. We stay there for about an hour. Spirit enjoys going out and playing with other dogs to get all his puppy energy out. He loves rough housing with other big dogs and is very friendly with people as well as other dogs. At first my boyfriend and I didn’t know how well he was going to react to other dogs because it was his first time at a dog park, but he does really well and has fun! That’s the important thing!

8:30 am Go home and take a shower

By the time Spirit, Kevin, and I all get home from the dog park, my mom is up and making Kevin (my boyfriend) and I breakfast. As she’s making breakfast we go upstairs and take a nice shower after we play with Spirit.

9:00 am Get ready for the day

Around 9:00 I get out of the shower and towel myself off. After I towel myself off, I wrap my hair in the towel and I figure out what to wear for that day. Once I figure out what to wear I put the clothes on and start doing my hair and makeup. My shirt is from Forever 21, my dark purple bralette is from Kohl’s, my pants are also from Forever 21, My necklace and hoop earrings are from Icing. My shoes are from Target from the kids section because I have really small feet hahaha. I use the Garnier Fructis Style Smooth Air Dry Anti-Frizz Cream and then blow dry my hair straight. After I blow dry it, it’s still a little frizzy that I run a straightening iron through my hair to help with the frizziness. With my makeup I like to keep it simple. I do my eyebrows first with my Anastasia DipBrow Pomade in Ebony. Then I use my Maybelline FaceStuidio Master Conceal in Light/Medium to clean up my eyebrows. Then I do my winged eyeliner using my Stila Stay All Day Liquid Eyeliner. I then put on a few coats of Benefit Roller Lash mascara and L’Oreal Telescopic Mascara both in black. I use my Estee Lauder Double Wear Foundation which gives me a nice demi-matte finish and to top it all off highlighter and lipstick! I use the Becca x Jaclyn Hill highlighting palette in the color Champagne Pop on the cheeks and nose and cupids bow and inner corner of my eye. In this picture I decided to wear my EBIN 24 hour Liquid Lipstick in the color Hollipop. Spray a matte setting spray and voila!

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Between 9-11 (Mondays and Wednesdays) I finish up any last minute homework, print stuff out etc. 

(Mondays/ Wednesdays) 11;10-12:30 Go to school

I go to a community college and I have my English class on Mondays and Wednesdays. Right now we’re on a grammar review and we have a test next week. Got to prepare for that soon!

2:00 pm Work

My boyfriend and I go to work at 2:00. Luckily, we work together so it’s not so bad. On Fridays and Saturdays we open and close the store.

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GRWM: Date Night

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Hi Loves,

Today I thought I’d share my Glam / Date night kind of look. I went on a date last night with my boyfriend, so I thought I’d share with you the typical kind of thing I’d wear for this kind of occasion.

Makeup
Base– Benefit POREfessional and Benefit POREfessional Matte Rescue
Foundation- Estee Lauder Double Wear Foundation

Concealer– Maybelline Master Conceal by Face Studio

Powder– NYX Stay Matte But Not Flat

Bronzer– Rimmel Natural Braonzer

Highlighter– Becca x Jaclyn Hill Prosecco Pop

Brows– Anastasia Beverly Hills Dipbrow Pomade in Ebony

Eyeliner– Stila Stay All Day Liquid Eyeliner

Mascara– Benefit Roller Lash Mascara

Lips– EBIN Matte Liquid Lipstick

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Hair

I did an egg and coconut oil hair mask and then shampooed and conditioned my hair with Pantene shampoo and conditioner. I then used some leave in conditioner by it’s a 10 and blow dried and straightened my hair. I then used Gorilla Snot Gel and sleeked my hair back into a simple high ponytail. Topped it off with my denim looking fry hat.

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Outfit

Because our date was just going to walk around downtown I decided to go with something casual. I’m wearing my Hollywood tank top from Forever 21 and some flower printed black jeggings from Walmart. Over the tank top because I didn’t know if the restaurant we were going to was going to be cold or not, I decided to wear an army green color jacket from American Eagle. I then paired it my black and white converses. For jewelry accessories I’m wearing some gold hoops that says “Babe” on it and a gold circle chocker

 

And that is my completed look for an ideal date night/ going out glam look. I’d love to know your thoughts and what you think. Also if you have any tips for me!

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Storytime: Why I dropped out of high school and going to community college

Weather you know me in person or you know me through the internet. You know me, but you don’t know my story. Yes, I’m an Asian American with strict, Asian, tiger parents. So, you can imagine, my conversations with my parents wanting to drop out of high school was difficult. Now, I don’t want to sound like a hypocrite, but if you are currently in high school, try not to drop out. I did try. I didn’t want to drop out, but my circumstances made me drop out. I don’t want to say the word “made me” because obviously it was a choice, but I did everything I could to stay. But dropping out didn’t mean I didn’t care about my education. I already made plans to take my GED the moment I drop out. I got my GED in March of 2017 and now I’m currently attending a community college in my town. It was the best decision I have ever made. My path may be different than everyone’s but my goal is the same and that is to go to community college, transfer to a 4 year university and get my degree.

Dropping out of high school was a difficult decision for me. No, it wasn’t because I hated school because who doesn’t hate school? I’ve been bullied since my 6th grade year. Yes, I know everyone get’s bullied, I should suck it up blah blah blah. And I did, I even transferred every year of my high school career. My junior year, I did not realize I had depression until my senior/junior year. I failed English my junior year so I got held back, that’s why I said my “senior/junior” year. In the middle of my senior year, or so I thought,  during Homecoming week the administrators called me into the office and told me I was getting held back. I cried and asked if I could skip Homecoming week and stay at home. They all agreed and told me that was fine. I also got diagnosed with depression while all of this was going on. In December of 2016 I got admitted into a mental/behavior institution. I missed so much school that it was hard for me to catch up. I realized maybe God is telling me this wasn’t the right time to be going to high school. So I talked to my mom about it and she agreed that because I missed too much school and that I might have to get held back again that I should drop out, but I had to promise her that I will get my GED right away or at least try. So I did. Now 9 months later, I got my GED and I’m going to community college. I thought of every possibility and every outcome for every decision I was about to make. Make sure if you are thinking about dropping out to see if it’s in your best interest and you are not dropping out because you hate school. I care about my education and I believe everyone should strive to be the best person they can be and get their education.

P.S. Make sure your mental health comes first. That’s what ultimately helped me decide on whether I should drop out or not. 

Meet the boyfriend: Boyfriend Tag

  1. When did we meet and where?
    • At his neighborhood pool in the summer
  2. Where/when was our first kiss?
    • At the pool the same day we met
  3. Who said “I love you” first?
    • Me
  4. When is my birthday?
    • October 28, 1998
  5. Where does my family come from?
    • South Korea
  6. When did you meet my parents?
    • When he moved into my house
  7. What is the one thing you wish I didn’t do?
    • Call myself fat and ugly
  8. Where was our first date?
    • We walked around downtown
  9. What is my eye color?
    • Dark brown
  10. What my favorite TV show?
    • One Tree Hill
  11. What kind of dressing do I get on my salad?
    • Olive Garden Italian Dressing
  12. One food I don’t like.
    • Ketchup
  13. My favourite drink?
    • Sweet Tea
  14. What is my shoe size?
    • 5
  15. What I am afraid of?
    • Spiders
  16. What’s my favourite sandwich?
    • Don’t have one
  17. What would I eat every day if I could?
    • French Fries
  18. What is my fav cereal
    • Frosted Flakes
    • Coco Rice Krispy Cereal
  19. What is my favourite song
    • Sorry Not Sorry by Demi Lovato
  20. My favorite sports team/s?
    • Atlanta Falcons
    • USC Gamecocks
  21. Who is my BFF?
    • You (My boyfriend)
  22. What is my favourite cake?
    • Red Velvet or Ice cream cake
  23. Do I play sports? If so what?
    • Highschool
      • Tennis
      • Volleyball
      • Cheerleading
  24. I would spent hours on _______.
    • Makeup
    • Pinterest
  25. What talents of mine do you LOVE?
    • Piano
  26. Do I have any nicknames? If so, what are they?
    • Koala bear
    • Panda bear
  27. What kind of books do I like?
    • Non Fiction
    • Fiction
    • Dystopia
    • Fantasy
  28. What is the first thing that I do in the morning?
    • Get on my phone
    • Kiss you (boyfriend)
  29. Complete this sentence “My girlfriend is __________”
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I don’t understand why you lied.

Why did you lie?

All the pills you’ve taken, the cigarettes you were smoking, the alcohol you were drinking

Were you ever sober when you were with me?

I would taste alcohol on your breath, but I didn’t care.

All the things you’ve said, were they true?

“You’re the cutest, sweetest thing.” That’s what you said.

You said you had a crush on me. You kissed me in a way I’ve never been kissed before

The way you touched me, the way you reassured me about that night.

You kissed me so passionately and kissed my forehead. You saved me that night or so I thought.

I can’t thank you enough for that. But was that all an act? Did you ever really care about me?

I pray to God you don’t become like your father. I pray that you will get help one day. I pray that the right girl will come along and help you. I wish very much that I could be that girl, but I can’t. I’m sorry. It hurts me seeing you like this.

I’m sorry if I hurt you by not being able to stay, but God was telling me I shouldn’t because I will be even more hurt than I am now.

I pray that one day, you will be real with yourself and admit your problems.

I caught feels for you. I never thought I would EVER catch feelings for anyone. But I did.

I would never admit it to anyone, but I caught feelings for you.

If you didn’t lie to me, maybe this would be different. You keep denying and denying that you don’t do any of those things.

But why am I hearing other things. Why do I hear,

“He is an addict.”

“He pops pills all the time.”

“He will hurt you and manipulate you and lie to you”

You said “I guess this is what nice guys get, right?”

No. You did it to yourself. You lost me because you lied to me.

Maybe. JUST maybe. It would’ve been different if you could tell me the truth.

I asked MULTIPLE times if you still take pills, if you still smoke cigarettes. You continuously said no.

And I believed you. Those brown eyes just staring at me. Making me feel lost and entranced.

You made me look like a dumbass bitch. I believed everything you said.

How could you lie so easily? How could you look at me the way you did and tell me straight in the eyes you don’t do anything? How was it so easy for you? Did you ever mean what you said?

After I broke up with you, how did you move on so easily. Like as if nothing happened and I don’t exist.

“*Austin is throwing a party and hella bitches are coming!”

Did that make you feel more like a man?

Did that make you feel better? Was I ever in your mind during the party?

Were you seeing other girls behind my back? You asked me if I was seeing other guys and I said no. You said cool I’m not seeing anyone either. If you were seeing other girls, why is that okay, but not okay if I see other guys.

The memories of our adventures and your touch still lingers. I want it to go away, but it won’t.

What about you? Do I even exist in your mind anymore? or am I just one of the girls you fucked?

I’m sorry if me leaving you hurt you. But it was for the best. For both of us.

I understand I’ll never understand why or if you ever were sober when we were together. It’s been eating me alive, but I’m finally going to let go of this pain I feel.

My head is all over the place. I can’t think straight. I don’t want to eat. I just want to sleep. You hurt me.

CJ showed me that anger is a secondary emotion. I was VERY angry the night I found out about the party and the lies you told.

Anger derives from being hurt, threatened, and fear.

I feel hurt and threatened because I was vulnerable with you. I told you EVERYTHING about me. I opened up to you and now I feel stupid. I don’t know what your intentions were when you got with me, but I pray that it was good. I know you are a good guy, *Austin, but you lied and hurt me. And I believe it was because you are afraid to be like your father. But *Austin, you are NOTHING like your father. But if you continue the path you are on, you will be. You are your own person. You are not your father. I hope you get help, babe. You are worth so much more than all the pills you’re taking. I care so much about you. You talked to me EVERYDAY! We talked until 3 am and opened up to each other. I thought you were different, but I guess I was wrong.

*this is not his real name! I changed it for security reasons!

 

To my “not ex boyfriend”? Thank you.

Thank you for showing me that underneath all the thorns and shields I built over my heart, that I have the ability to love.

Thank you for showing me that I have feelings and my heart is soft and full of love.

Thank you for the time we had together and the memories we made.

Thank you for putting a smile on my face.

Although this “not relationship” didn’t last long at all, I’m glad it happened. I’m thankful I found out who you really were in the early stages. This “not relationship” crashed and burned very quickly and I’m sorry. I did cause it, however, you did put it on yourself. The truth caught on. A little earlier than you thought, but it caught on.

Thank you, _____________________ (I had his full name here, for confidential reasons I erased it). Thank you for everything– the good, the bad and the ugly.

May Favorites 2017

It’s crazy to think we’re already at the end of May! I want to first say CONGRATULATIONS to the Class of 2017! Y’all did it! Next stop: Adulthood and College! I can’t wait to see what life has in store for y’all! Second: I want to say sorry I haven’t been posting in a really long time, college and work has been super crazy and I haven’t had a lot of time blogging. I’m back with my monthly favorites again! I don’t have many favorites for this month, bet let’s get started!

Like I said before, I don’t have a lot of favorites, but I’ve been loving my Stila Stay All Day Eyeliner! I love how dark and opaque the liner is. It’s also very versatile. The brush tip is very flexible so you can have a nature thin liner or a thick, dramatic liner.

I also have been loving this new matte liquid lipstick by Kiss New York Professional. The liquid lipstick line is called Celeste and the color I’ve been obsessed with is called Peanut Brittle.

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My next favorite is an organization thing. I’ve been really in love with planning my life accordingly but in fashion! It’s not just a planner, but it’s called bullet journaling. I love how flexible bullet journaling is! It’s a planner, a diary, a sketchbook, and a to-do list! You can customize it to your lifestyle.

This month I’ve been reading the book Evermore by Alyson Noël. It’s about a sixteen-year-old, Ever Bloom and how her life changes forever after a car accident that kills her entire family. She moves to California and posses psychic abilities. This book is the first book to the Immortal series. Alyson Noël does an amazing job with building suspense and curiosity to hold her readers’ attention throughout this book. I would definitely recommend this book!

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Well y’all that’s it for this month, I hope y’all have a wonderful day!

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Studying Tips to Succeed in College (or High School)

Hey y’all! In case y’all didn’t know, I’m a freshman in college. As I was studying for my psychology test, I thought it would be a good idea to share with y’all my study tips on here. So let’s get into it!

Tip #1: Get a planner

I would highly, highly recommend getting a planner. It will help get you organized, especially if you’re busy. I’m have a part-time job and I go to college part-time, I also write on this blog (not as often as I like, but hopefully I can get back into blogging again)! Currently I’m using a bullet journal. I love bullet journalling because it’s very flexible and I can customize it to MY lifestyle. I will be doing a bullet journal blog post very soon for those of y’all who are interested.

Tip #2: Record your lectures

I like recording my lectures in class because sometimes my teachers will talk a lot and has a lot of information I can’t type or write down I can always go home and listen to the recording and revise my notes and make them better when I study.

Tip #3: Flash Cards

If I have a class where there’s a lot of vocabulary or even if there’s questions on the test and they’re short answers I like to study with flash cards. If you don’t like using paper flash cards you can always use StudyBlue.com or Quizlet.com. Get the app on your phone and study on-the-go!

Tip #4: Preview and Review

Preview before class and review after class. If you just finished a section or a chapter, read the next section or chapter before class so you have a decent idea of what you will be talking about in class. Then after class you can review in depth of what y’all talked about. This is a great study skill to have because you won’t have to study a lot because you’re spreading the time out.

Tip $5: Color Coding/Highlighting

Last and final tip is color coding and highlighting. Color coding your notes and highlighting important parts in your notes is a great study tip! If you color code your notes it’s easier to see without being super overwhelmed when you’re studying for finals. It also makes it pretty and somewhat fun to do! I’ve noticed the more colorful my notes are the more I want to look at them.

I hope these tips are helpful and I would love to see what other tips y’all have that work for you!

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In-Flight Beauty Routine

As summer is approaching, I’m sure many of y’all including myself will be traveling a lot for vacation. I have put a few tips together to share with y’all, so your skin will not be so stressed out as it already is from flying.

Tip #1: Pack travel sized products you already use at home. For example get empty travel sized bottles from Amazon or a beauty supply store. This is because your skin is used to the products and you know you will not be breaking out. You don’t want to stress your skin any more than it already is.

Tip #2: Use a makeup remover or a water cleanser with a cotton pad to remove your makeup.

Bonus Tip: Soak the cotton pads with the water cleanser and put it in a zip lock bag.

Tip #3: Ask a flight attendant for a hot towel. Place the hot towel over your face and leave it on for about 10 minutes. This will help open up your pores, so that your skin will absorb the products better.

Tip #4: Moisturize your skin with your favorite moisturizer. Don’t forget your lips either, so use your trustee lip balm.

Tip $5: Use an overnight face mask. Overnight face masks are great because you can have it on while you sleep.

Tip #6: After you wake up from your nap, you can use your cleansing water and cotton bad again and spray a facial mist all over your face.

Tip #7: For makeup keep it light and simple. I like to use a cushion foundation because it’s quick and easy and great for traveling. Next, use an eyelash curler and mascara and lipstick and some brow powder.

Hope y’all have/had a great flight!!!

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May Goals

Hey y’all recently I have read that writing your goals increases the likelihood of committing to them and taking actions by 42%. I have decided to write them down in my bullet journal for a daily reminder and share it with y’all.

Since this is my first written out goals I will not have a recap of last month’s goals because I didn’t have any, however I will be doing monthly goals and do a reflection of each month and tell y’all on things I could improve on and how I achieved/worked on achieving my goals for each month.

So, in May I want to:

  • Write 3 posts a week
  • Read 1 “fun” book
  • Let the things I can’t control go as much as possible
  • Eat healthier
  • Get a strong start to college
  • Continue bullet journaling– be organized
  • Be more financially aware of spending
    • Focus more on needs than wants
    • Not eating out
  • Eat breakfast every morning (I’m don’t eat breakfast)
  • Try to keep up having a clean room/car for more than a day
  • Figure out what to get my mom for Mother’s Day

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